Six Months To Live: The Story Of Evy McDonald

NOTE: By request, I have excerpted this story from my book, Atilla The Gate Agent: Travel Tales and Life Lessons From A Musical Laf-ologist.

During 1990 I lived in the Cayman Islands, working as an entertainer at a posh resort. Despite the laid back, exotic lifestyle, it was a period of great uncertainty in my life, and after a few months there I started experiencing some loneliness and depression. One night I listened to an audio book by Bernie Siegel called Peace, Love, and Healing. In it, Bernie recounted the story of a woman named Evy McDonald, and it had a profound impact on me.

In 1980, Evy was diagnosed with ALS, “Lou Gehrigs Disease.” By the time the doctors had figured out what the problem was, the disease was quite advanced. In Evy’s words, she was “a bowl of jello in a wheelchair.” The doctor came into her hospital room and gave her the news that the best she could hope for would be about six months. Evy had a masters degree in nursing and knew this was a fatal illness.

So she went home and raged about her situation for a couple of days. Then Evy had a thought: even though she was dying, even though her body just barely worked anymore, and even though she only had six months left to live, was there something she could do to make the most out of her last six months?

So she came up with a plan. She sat in front of a mirror naked and looked at herself. She’d had polio as a child, so she had two withered limbs. In addition, she’d been overweight her whole life. And now, she was dying of a wasting disease. She sat there and experienced all the negative thoughts and feelings she was having about her body and her life. She wrote them all down in a list. It was a long list.

Then Evy did three things. First, she started a new list of things she liked about herself. She began with her hair and her hands, because she’d always been proud of them. But this list of good qualities did not come as quickly as the other list. She decided to sit in front of the mirror without any clothes on every day, three times a day, to work on this new list. She would set a little timer for 20 minutes to make herself stay there, because it was hard. All these negative thoughts and feelings were intense and overwhelming at times. But before she would leave, she would find at least one new thing to like about her body or her life that she could add to the good list.

The second thing she did was to accept the negative feelings as her own. She took responsibility for them. She owned them. Then she did something else, a little practice she developed. She would say, “God, these are my feelings and thoughts. I accept them as mine. But I don’t know what to do with them. You take them.” So every day she would accept her feelings as her own, and then give them away to God.

In addition, she decided to forgive anyone and everyone she needed to. She did this daily.

Over time, Evy’s list of positive qualities grew longer, and eventually it became as long as the old list. Still, she kept practicing. Her new list grew longer than the old list, and kept growing.

At some point, she literally crossed a threshold. She wheeled into the mirror room and for the first time, all the negative thoughts and feelings had gone. They simply weren’t there anymore. All she could feel for herself that day was love and compassion. Not only for her body, which she now saw as a miracle of creation and a vehicle that still served her, but also for the person, the soul that she was inside. She was able to see herself as a blessed being who could experience these wonderful feelings and thoughts, and as a person who had done much good in the world.

Still, she kept practicing.

At some point, she began to have more strength in her limbs. Pretty soon after that, she could walk again, feed herself and clothe herself, and do everything normally. Evy became the first person to completely recover from ALS. And when that happened, she realized she must have more work to do in the world.

After listening to her story, I thought that my problem with depression might be from a similar origin: not enough self-love and esteem. I decided to write a song about her, which I did, and to do everything I could to make my life about love.

A few months later, I was back in Kansas City recovering from a ruptured spleen. I was still suffering from depression, and had had been referred to a doctor for counseling about it, an old acquaintance named Bowen White. I had a couple of sessions with Bowen and he helped me a lot. In addition, Bowen is the kind of doctor who becomes your friend as well as your doctor, and his friendship was of great comfort to me.

One night, a friend called to tell me Bowen was giving a talk for the local cancer support group, and asked if I wanted to go hear him speak. I had no idea Bowen ever gave talks, so I said sure. It sounded interesting.

It’s hard to describe what happened that night. Bowen was one of the best speakers I’d ever heard. He had great rapport, a tremendous sense of humor, and fantastic material. But as I listened to him, I kept noticing places in his talk where songs of mine would fit perfectly, like they were written for it.

To my amazement, near the end of his talk, Bowen told the story of Evy McDonald and how she had healed herself through love and forgiveness. Needless to say, I was stunned at the coincidence. It was one of those synchronistic events that makes you feel there are big wheels turning that you don’t know anything about.

The next day I called Bowen and told him he needed to hear some of my songs. We got together, I played him the songs that I “heard” during his talk, including Evy’s song, and he was as amazed as I had been.

But this wasn’t all. It turned out Bowen knew Evy personally, and through him I was able to contact her. I sent her the song I had written about her, and she wrote back a lovely note telling me how she and all her friends had cried when they heard it.

Some months later I was traveling in her vicinity and got to spend a day with her. I experienced first hand what a great soul she is. I noticed how all day long she gave the best of herself away to everybody, indiscriminately.

Evy made a couple of points clear to me during our visit. She emphasized that this “miracle” she experienced was not the miracle she was going for. She’d had a fatal illness. She’d expected to die. All she was trying to do was have some love and compassion for herself before that happened. If she could just get to a place where she accepted and loved herself unconditionally, before she died, than that would be enough for this lifetime.

Secondly, her whole life had been about service. She was a nurse, as I mentioned, and before that she was a candy striper who broke the record for hours volunteered in her local hospital. But when she got sick, she realized all her service had been what she called either Type I or Type II service. That is, service done either for reward and recognition, or service done out of a sense of duty. Evy wondered if there could be a third type: service done purely from love. And she decided that from this point on all her service would be about love. Even if she was sick.

As of this writing, in 2006, Evy has been totally recovered from Lou Gehrig’s disease for 26 years. She has recently gone back to school and changed careers to become a minister. She has her own congregation, loves her “work,” and is as happy as ever. She’s discovered that service done purely from love is as beneficial for the giver as the receiver. She gets filled up on the outflow.

As for me, my depression lifted and hasn’t come back since.

The song Unconditional Love (The Story Of Evy) is available as a single song download, an album download, or on CD here.

Unconditional Love (The Story Of Evy)

© 2006

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27 Responses to Six Months To Live: The Story Of Evy McDonald

  1. Noreen says:

    Beautiful, thank you for sharing Greg.

  2. Pam Pappas says:

    Hello Greg,

    Thank you so much for sharing both Evy’s story and your own. I love the parts also about the levels of service: recognition, obligation/”duty”, and love. So many people do spiritual practices or other things to “get” some specific outcome, unlike Evy who came from love (even though it was hard.)

    I am so glad you & Bowen came together with songs and humor, and that you’re here writing and singing to us! You are an inspiration to me.

    Love to you,

  3. carolina says:

    Hi Greg! thank you very much for sharing the story of Evy.

    I feel so enlightened that life is so wonderful by giving away love and loving yourself.

    Depression pulls us down to what good can we be.

    I’m also in state of depression right now,but whatever it is…I am so glad i have read this article.

    I admire you and Evy for sharing your own stories.

  4. rebecca says:

    I love miracles.

  5. KimiAvary says:

    Hi Greg,
    I love this story and this song. We have such a need for learning to love ourselves unconditionally. Evy is an inspiration and so are you. Thank you.

  6. Kim says:

    Thanks so much for sharing this Greg. Such a moving story and illustration of the power of self-love.

  7. John Frieden says:

    Greg this is such a most significant real connection about this Dr. and you and Evy. The song ‘unconditional love’ is one of my favorites.

    Thanks so much, John

  8. Ruth Fatur says:

    Thank you, Greg. You came to our tiny church in west Tampa and sang that song. We have referred to it many time in our Sunday messages, but this is the first time I read “the rest of the story.” It is beautiful. Thank you. And many blessings to you.

  9. Shane FitzMaurice says:

    Hi Greg,

    I heard about Evy a few years ago and was desperate to find out if the story was real and speak to her about the healing. With the help of the internet, I tracked her down and left a few messages at her parish. She finally called me back and we had a great talk. I was amazed that she still was baffled by the experience and could not say for a certainty how it was she became healed. I pray every day and ask God to forgive my sins and heal this body. To date I am still suffering with ALS but have not given up hope.

    I would like to hear your songs…..

    Wishing you the best,

  10. Naomi Colb says:

    Mirror work with the practice of Unconditional Love seems to fit with Dr. Imoto’s “Many Messages From Water”. Since we are made mostly of water….doesn’t it make sense that our blessing for ourselves will transform our cells? After that, I imagine we will be free to unconditionally bless the water in the cells of others:) Can you feel that peace on earth is certain when this practice is universal?

  11. c says:

    Hi Greg,

    Your story and Evy’s story are very touching indeed.

    And what touched me were your own words:
    “It was one of those synchronistic events that makes you feel there are big wheels turning that you don’t know anything about”.

    God’s incredible Grace is touching us, only if I could open my heart and eye to see.

    Thank you for reminding me of the miracles around me.

    I recently heard one of Rumi’s saying :

    “Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”

    God bless.

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  13. I’m so glad to read this, Greg. I was just listening to Evy’s song again the other day and I wondered how she is doing now. Also, I am working on a sermon for a church that his having me as a guest speaker Sunday. My theme is: “Mysteries and Miracles.” Now I have a perfect example of a modern day miracle to share. Thank you.

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  15. barbara says:

    Just beautiful…..thank you for sharing

  16. Wendy J Breitenstein says:

    Thank you for this story. My big brother just recently was told he had ALS.They give him weeks to months.
    This gives me hope.
    thank you so much for Sharing.

  17. Josette Mosel says:

    New to your site, but really enjoying it! Thank you for sharing a story most of us can relate to. Evy is proof that WE MUST LOVE OURSELVES, WITH THE HELP OF GOD, WHO IS LOVE, BEFORE WE CAN LOVE OTHERS. Only when we can accept our own flaws and forgive ourselves can we accept ,forgive and UNCONDITIONALLY LOVE others. May you be blessed ,Greg, according to YOUR needs and HIS Will !!!!

  18. Markéta says:

    I think no song made me cry so much before, and this story is just great. Thank you.

  19. DeAnn says:

    Hey Greg, just posted this blog to Facebook, cuz it’s really wonderful stuff! Feels like my friends can get started on their own if they know it works. Which reminds me, I need to get started. Heading for mirror! Hugs!

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  23. This article is really helpfull

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